People need to understand that life is not about what they wish to see happen in their lives.Life is what actually does HAPPEN to them, moment by moment. Every catalyst, every setback or blessing, regardless of its nature, is an invitation to address a karmic debt. Even though we, mere humans, have no way of guessing how or why we have merited any unanticipated debt or challenge, if we are unwilling to address the moment holistically – that’s the end of our personal evolution. Nothing and no one can alter either a karmic deadline or an unpreventable outcome. All we are karmically expected to do is deal with it from an accepting heart. Yudit C.S.
When fiction intersects realityDear Reader,My passion is to peek inside the dark corners of my characters’ emotional baggage and sexuality and engage the reader as a witness of their strength of character.Grapevine chatterReading specific chapters has been compared to acts of vicarious but delicious voyeurism. True, the challenge is to respect my characters’ integrity, not only for the readers’ sake but, more importantly, for the women who, in real life, have felt in their heart a pain that is similar to that of my characters.The texts that create themselves in my mind provide a means to explore variations on the theme of female love and desire, at times gritty, at times sensual and, at times, both.Because my characters live in this 3-D world of ours, not on Planet X, inevitably, some of their lives intersect with men and, at times, I call upon ‘my women’ to survive the sort of great odds that are part-and-parcel of the lives of many girls and women worldwide.It has been said that some texts push a few buttons that, sometimes, had been either buried deeply or undetected within the readers themselves.Such plot beats are found to be useful conversation starters on topics that one may have been hesitant to broach to friends or family.What I know for a fact is that, at the very least, they provide very sexy moments to share with someone … close – and that your best friends will love you for lending them a Saint-Clair novel because they’ve been hard to get.Spoiler: these texts are not ideal for anyone who wants a book that can be read in short bursts while keeping an eye on the kids or the bus route.
You are very welcome to use, free of charge, any article authored by C.C. Saint-Clair or any section thereof, provided:•you acknowledge me as the author•you do not edit the contentHeartfelt thanks to Jayne Doah for the cover designs she has donated to the Stepping Stones series.
Tough Stuff: Thought Control As Relevant Today As Ever
Here is a truism: breasts attract eyes as honey attracts bees. And here is another: What the eye does not admire, the heart does not covet. There is much wisdom in this ancient idiom but sexual desire has a mind of its own.
Breasts Attract Eyes As
Honey Attracts Bees
Bare All - Shine Light
The Universal Declaration of Human Rights passed in 1948 and guarantees the rights to equal wages for equal work, respect and personal safety to all persons. However, in some countries, it is said ‘life is cheap’,
Since keys and locks appeared in ancient Egypt and Assyria, Man has gone to great lengths to keep himself as well as his compassionate heart – behind locked gates in a bid to protect himself and all that he considers possessions.
About Locks And Defensive
Walls
The More Men Search for
Masculine Energy – The More
Naked Is the Female Body
The Universal Declaration of Human Rights passed in 1948 and guarantees the rights to equal wages for equal work, respect and personal safety to all persons. However, in some countries, it is said ‘life is cheap’,
Wonder Woman - Sexy
Brawn
October, 2016 – Wonder Woman would become an honorary ambassador in support of the UN’s development goal five which is “to achieve gender equality and empower all women and girls”.
Women Struggling With
Humility [Part 4]
My teacher from Jerusalem, Yudit Cohen-Shoore, of blessed memory, also known as Moriya, once said to me, ‘Ego-driven choices are attention-seeking attitudes.
Women Carry The Brunt
Some of us do ponder how to begin redesigning aspects of what matters most to us in this lifetime.
Woman In Search Of Her
True Feminine Energy
An honest look at our personal and cultural modus operandi can generate a conscious rethinking of what, of our body-mind, is ours to adjust.
Why Does It Feel More Like
Regress Than Progress.
Brisbane 2019
Depending on where in the world we live, quite a few generations have enjoyed a lifetime of ‘plenty’ and ‘liberty’, even plenty of liberty – and today, more than ever before.
Woman Trapped In the Eye
Of The Beholder
An honest look at our personal and cultural modus operandi can generate a conscious rethinking of what, of our body-mind, is ours to adjust.
The Weakness We Fear
Experts tell us that a genuine sign of intelligence is not the type of qualification that is framed on our wall, but knowing that we are 100% absolutely in tune with each aspects of our life..
Which Aspect Of Our Body
Defines Us Best?
In the summer of 2012, a pair of breasts, free from all support and coverings, became a minor celebrity in downtown Manhattan.
Many years ago, Carl G. Jung put forward the notion that the persona is a mask for the collective psyche; that it is a mask that pretends to be accepted as unique. The persona’s end-goal is that the self believes in the reality of that mask.
Space is Matter But Does It
Matter?
Progress or Regress Begins
in the Heart
Paint it, Baby! Paint It!
Man Under Stress –
Weakness We Fear
We know that everything is energy; that thoughts generate energy and that energy creates the fundamental building blocks of our reality.
An honest look at our personal and cultural modus operandi can generate a conscious rethinking of what, of our body-mind, is ours to adjust.
Man’s greatest fear is to have his insecurities made public. From womb to grave, Man’s greatest weakness is his dependence on Woman, the one he has always labelled ‘weak’. No wonder Man prefers to keep that insecurity on the quiet.
Man Designed As A Non-
Object Of Desire
Some of us do ponder how to begin redesigning aspects of what matters most to us in this lifetime.
Male And Female He
Created Them
In His Own Image Genesis 1:27 – So God created human beings in his own image. In the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
Line of Separation =Me vs
You = Us vs Them
Climate change – Disasters
– Definitely ‘Man-Made’ –
Or Not?
An honest look at our personal and cultural modus operandi can generate a conscious rethinking of what is ours to adjust. Separation implies Separation = thinking that we are cuter, sexier, smarter, richer, gentler, more religious…
From Past to Present This text below which, within the framework of spiritual philosophy, deconstructs some of the most striking ‘occurrences’ that have made world headlines, is the 4th of a series written between 2010 and 2014.
Tucked deep inside a faraway kingdom there was once a hamlet where the villagers gave each other The Gift of Pain…(8 pages)
Awakening
How The Unicorn Saved
Little Moomba
Slim and grungy in her stained overalls, she punched the time clock. Off to hang out with the gang and shoot some pool…(2 pages)
C.C. Saint-Clair -Lesbian feminist writer currently living in Brisbane, Australia, was first published in 2001. Her debut novel, North and Left From Here [Take II], launched her as the 'undisputed mistress of the sensual lesbian storyline' and the Alex Delaforet series. Though the sensuality of her writing appeals beyond label boundaries, her work quickly attracted the tag of ‘morgan in the mirror, far from maddy, ’. C.C. Saint-Clair went on to writing another six novels.
(September 9, 2005) After weeks of deliberation, the Rhode Island International Film Festival (RIIFF) is pleased to announce the winners for this year’s Barren Branches GLBT Screenplay Competition. Many excellent screenplays were submitted covering the spectrum from comedy to drama to contemporary to historical.
1st Prize: Outing Joey – J.T. Tepnapa, Los Angeles, CA2nd Prize: Far From Maddy – C.C. Saint-Clair, Australia3rd Prize: Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell – Zachary Lee DeGregorio, Los Angeles, CA
“C.C. Saint-Clair’s genre is GLBT, but we were struck by how vividly she portrayed human emotion and, in particular, Morgan’s need to BE a man in her screenplay Far From Maddy. We felt that her story speaks to a larger audience.”
Stepping Stones- Three dense volumes focussed on holistic spirituality and a rethink of the roles of our Heart and Soul in our day-to-day.
LGBTQI romance novels - My characters search for happiness within the all too common reality of prejudice and limiting beliefs. More often than not, they succeed.
Short Reads – Easy reads ranging from soulful awakenings to soft erotica.
Warriors We Are – Wide-ranging blogs focussed on an authentic search for a state of heart/mind coherence.
Tough Stuff– It can be hard work overcoming old habits to do our best to be our best- from the inside out, now and forever.
“Based on a true story, Benchmarks focuses on unattainable female desire. It is set in the Montmartre district of Paris, the French snowfields, and the Riviera. It is a classic – pure lesbian longing classic”“As a little child at the movies, I had many a time peeked through my fingers when confronted by scary pictures. But now I had to look at these visions from the past. I had to grab them by their edges, one at the time, like so many thin and cold photographs devoid of life. And one by one, I had to grab them and release them, shrunken-thin and empty.”
Far From Maddy
April 10 2007
Many a beautiful and gentle dyke-heart has been broken by the here-now-gone-tomorrow straight woman who was unable to commit either to the somewhat marginalized lifestyle, to sexual intimacy without a nature-made penis and, pre-dating the validation of Pink Parenting, to a life most likely without children.Freeze-FrameImagine a park: lovely old trees. Birds chirping away in the branches. Gently sloping lawn. Dappled shade. A lone figure on a picnic blanket, book in hand, tuned into private thoughts. It is you. You are in the park. You are reading, but more importantly, you are elsewhere in your head. The book you are reading is Far From Maddy.
Jagged Dreams
October 30 2005
Jagged Dreams, is about. It goes like this: on the one hand, I’ve focused on the sensuality of lesbian love (always foremost in my mind) and, on the other, I’ve targeted homophobia and incest.This having been said, the feedback I’ve been getting so far suggests that most readers still come away from Jagged Dreams thinking this novel is really about tender mind-wanderings, lustful love and the struggle of keeping one’s promises.OK, so … beyond regularly reminding myself that the society in which I live is not as peachy-pink for everybody like the way it has finally evolved for me now that I am able to indulge my creativity from inside the emotionally safe life my partner affords me, I wanted to build in an extra layer, something extra such as violent homophobia – something that is very different from what I normally write about, namely the overwhelming rollercoaster-like, mind-blasting ‘thrill’ of being attracted to someone we know we cannot afford at the emotional level, for whatever reason.The prologue focuses on the aggression perpetrated on Tamara sets the plot in motion.Later, a couple of red-herrings – loose connections to the preceding novel, Risking-me, where Tamara is first introduced, in opposition to Alex, contending for Emilie’s affection – refresh the issue of domestic violence within the lesbian community, my community.While tracking down the ‘bad guy’, the trick was not to get caught up into a genre switch and stray from my primary focus – lesbian romance that exposes the vulnerable often emotional side of real lesbians’ lives, warts and all, through painful introspection.
Morgan In The Mirror
October 24 2004
Simply because, as a cisgender woman, once I became interested in the notion of gender on a continuum, particularly where it is relevant to female-to-male gender dysphoria, I realised there was not a lot of rich, positive, real-to-life fiction out there either for the FTM readers [of fiction] or their SOFFAs or questioning youths to relate to.It is my hope that Morgan – a 23-year-old, post-chest op, trans-man – and his life journey – will go some way towards filling a little of this unfortunate vacuum.
North & Left From Here [Take II] Then & Now
January 08 2002
The novel that launched the ‘undisputed mistress of the sensual lesbian storyline’ and the Alex Delaforet series.Many years ago already, I came home feeling particularly jaded from a night on the scene.Though I had never kept a diary, I picked up a notepad and jotted down flashes of discomfort related to the alienating nature of the night’s experience.The following day, I found myself fleshing out these snippets of raw emotion into full sentences and paragraphs, which later became the opening chapter of Thirty-Five and a Half, later renamed North and Left from Here.I took to this stream-of-consciousness style of writing like a duck to water; just like I had latched on to my lesbian identity at seventeen – and never looked back.
Risking Me
November 02 2004
“Risking-me is really about 2 of the 3 things I most worry about: one is my fear is of ever repeating abusive patterns as I’ve known them for most of my life.The other is of putting my emotional self at risk. So, I can say that I found that novel very relevant. Besides, there’s a sex scene in there that set up from the beginning, but…if you’re patient, it’ll come to you as a delicious reward. Very sexy.”“About time someone, who better than a dyke, should expose a topic that too many of us prefer to keep hush hush. It’s great because it has an intelligent plot and it’s great because it’s a sexy read. Great mix.”
Silent Goodbyes
January 08 2002
Join Emillie and Solange on board Lazy moonI reached for her hand and pulled her close to me behind the wheel. She draped an arm around my shoulder, a little stiffly at first and for a momanr, together but with different eyes, churning different thoughts, we looked in the same direction, straight ahead, beyond mast and pulpit.We eventually lost ourselves in a rare moment of total contentedness with the seascape around us. Wispy cotton-strand clouds stretched ahead.The wind was blowing firmly but steadily. A few isolated white caps were cavorting towards us, still thin and unthreatening.Under the afternoon sun, thick cords swelled and glistened on port side as so many silverbacks undulated away from us. The watery seal of the afternoon moon was hovering above the mast. “Here, have a feel of the wheel.” I had eased myself away from the wheel and pulled her gently into position in front of me. “It’s a different feel than when motoring. Just keep it going as it is.”
CC Saint-Clair
Stepping Stones To The Top Of The World
People need to understand that life is not about what they wish to see happen in their lives.Life is what actually does HAPPEN to them, moment by moment. Every catalyst, every setback or blessing, regardless of its nature, is an invitation to address a karmic debt. Even though we, mere humans, have no way of guessing how or why we have merited any unanticipated debt or challenge, if we are unwilling to address the moment holistically – that’s the end of our personal evolution. Nothing and no one can alter either a karmic deadline or an unpreventable outcome. All we are karmically expected to do is deal with it from an accepting heart. Yudit C.S.
C.C. Saint-Clair -Lesbian feminist writer currently living in Brisbane, Australia, was first published in 2001. Her debut novel, North and Left From Here [Take II], launched her as the 'undisputed mistress of the sensual lesbian storyline' and the Alex Delaforet series. Though the sensuality of her writing appeals beyond label boundaries, her work quickly attracted the tag of ‘morgan in the mirror, far from maddy, ’. C.C. Saint-Clair went on to writing another six novels.
(September 9, 2005) After weeks of deliberation, the Rhode Island International Film Festival (RIIFF) is pleased to announce the winners for this year’s Barren Branches GLBT Screenplay Competition. Many excellent screenplays were submitted covering the spectrum from comedy to drama to contemporary to historical.
1st Prize: Outing Joey – J.T. Tepnapa, Los Angeles, CA2nd Prize: Far From Maddy – C.C. Saint-Clair, Australia3rd Prize: Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell – Zachary Lee DeGregorio, Los Angeles, CA
“C.C. Saint-Clair’s genre is GLBT, but we were struck by how vividly she portrayed human emotion and, in particular, Morgan’s need to BE a man in her screenplay Far From Maddy. We felt that her story speaks to a larger audience.”
C.C. Saint-Clair -Lesbian feminist writer currently living in Brisbane, Australia, was first published in 2001. Her debut novel, North and Left From Here [Take II], launched her as the 'undisputed mistress of the sensual lesbian storyline' and the Alex Delaforet series. Though the sensuality of her writing appeals beyond label boundaries, her work quickly attracted the tag of ‘the thinking woman’s lesbian romance’. C.C. Saint-Clair went on to writing another six novels.
Stepping Stones- Three dense volumes focussed on holistic spirituality and a rethink of the roles of our Heart and Soul in our day-to-day.
LGBTQI romance novels - My characters search for happiness within the all too common reality of prejudice and limiting beliefs. More often than not, they succeed.
Short Reads – Easy reads ranging from soulful awakenings to soft erotica.
Warriors We Are – Wide-ranging blogs focussed on an authentic search for a state of heart/mind coherence.
Tough Stuff– It can be hard work overcoming old habits to do our best to be our best- from the inside out, now and forever.
“Based on a true story, Benchmarks focuses on unattainable female desire. It is set in the Montmartre district of Paris, the French snowfields, and the Riviera. It is a classic – pure lesbian longing classic”“As a little child at the movies, I had many a time peeked through my fingers when confronted by scary pictures. But now I had to look at these visions from the past. I had to grab them by their edges, one at the time, like so many thin and cold photographs devoid of life. And one by one, I had to grab them and release them, shrunken-thin and empty.”
Far From Maddy
April 10 2007
Many a beautiful and gentle dyke-heart has been broken by the here-now-gone-tomorrow straight woman who was unable to commit either to the somewhat marginalized lifestyle, to sexual intimacy without a nature-made penis and, pre-dating the validation of Pink Parenting, to a life most likely without children.Freeze-FrameImagine a park: lovely old trees. Birds chirping away in the branches. Gently sloping lawn. Dappled shade. A lone figure on a picnic blanket, book in hand, tuned into private thoughts. It is you. You are in the park. You are reading, but more importantly, you are elsewhere in your head. The book you are reading is Far From Maddy.
Jagged Dreams
October 30 2005
Jagged Dreams, is about. It goes like this: on the one hand, I’ve focused on the sensuality of lesbian love (always foremost in my mind) and, on the other, I’ve targeted homophobia and incest.This having been said, the feedback I’ve been getting so far suggests that most readers still come away from Jagged Dreams thinking this novel is really about tender mind-wanderings, lustful love and the struggle of keeping one’s promises.OK, so … beyond regularly reminding myself that the society in which I live is not as peachy-pink for everybody like the way it has finally evolved for me now that I am able to indulge my creativity from inside the emotionally safe life my partner affords me, I wanted to build in an extra layer, something extra such as violent homophobia – something that is very different from what I normally write about, namely the overwhelming rollercoaster-like, mind-blasting ‘thrill’ of being attracted to someone we know we cannot afford at the emotional level, for whatever reason.The prologue focuses on the aggression perpetrated on Tamara sets the plot in motion.Later, a couple of red-herrings – loose connections to the preceding novel, Risking-me, where Tamara is first introduced, in opposition to Alex, contending for Emilie’s affection – refresh the issue of domestic violence within the lesbian community, my community.While tracking down the ‘bad guy’, the trick was not to get caught up into a genre switch and stray from my primary focus – lesbian romance that exposes the vulnerable often emotional side of real lesbians’ lives, warts and all, through painful introspection.
Morgan In The Mirror
October 24 2004
Simply because, as a cisgender woman, once I became interested in the notion of gender on a continuum, particularly where it is relevant to female-to-male gender dysphoria, I realised there was not a lot of rich, positive, real-to-life fiction out there either for the FTM readers [of fiction] or their SOFFAs or questioning youths to relate to.It is my hope that Morgan – a 23-year-old, post-chest op, trans-man – and his life journey – will go some way towards filling a little of this unfortunate vacuum.
North & Left From Here [Take II] Then & Now
January 08 2002
The novel that launched the ‘undisputed mistress of the sensual lesbian storyline’ and the Alex Delaforet series.Many years ago already, I came home feeling particularly jaded from a night on the scene.Though I had never kept a diary, I picked up a notepad and jotted down flashes of discomfort related to the alienating nature of the night’s experience.The following day, I found myself fleshing out these snippets of raw emotion into full sentences and paragraphs, which later became the opening chapter of Thirty-Five and a Half, later renamed North and Left from Here.I took to this stream-of-consciousness style of writing like a duck to water; just like I had latched on to my lesbian identity at seventeen – and never looked back.
Risking Me
November 02 2004
“Risking-me is really about 2 of the 3 things I most worry about: one is my fear is of ever repeating abusive patterns as I’ve known them for most of my life.The other is of putting my emotional self at risk. So, I can say that I found that novel very relevant. Besides, there’s a sex scene in there that set up from the beginning, but…if you’re patient, it’ll come to you as a delicious reward. Very sexy.”“About time someone, who better than a dyke, should expose a topic that too many of us prefer to keep hush hush. It’s great because it has an intelligent plot and it’s great because it’s a sexy read. Great mix.”